Leap of faith

Today is Wednesday..been home for 3 days now..My pals are out of town so I have to spend my week here alone with Chloe, but I am trying to make the best of it. As usual, i got up in the morning, checked my email and applied to some jobs. I had a nightmare last night too.. I dream that I got another "love letter" from the company...aka rejection letter. Gosh... it really made me feel so hopeless for a bit. But anyway, I cleaned my kitchen for a while today since my lovely sweet brother left me with 3-week-old rice in the rice cooker and 3-week-old-shrimps-and-fried-chicken in the fridge. How lovely... Soo.. I ended up cleaning them all but then my garbage disposal stucked..dang it! I had to reach to the very deep of that disgusting hole to clean it up.. yuck!!
Thank God, it's working now..

Then, I watched some tv while playing with Chloe for a while until she fell asleep. I managed to cut her nails today too..FYI, Chloe hates when I touch her nails coz she is scared of the nail clipper..ahiahiaha..
I went to Public Library to rent some DVD's..3 workout DVD, ahuahuahuhaa....and 1 drama....
I am inspired by those Colorado people to stay fit and in shape..so I am considering to buy a bike and do some exercises.. ahuahuahahuaua (i know someone is laughing now!!!)
After that, I went to Goodwill to see if maybe they have "used" bike, haihaihaha....Too bad they dont have one today. But, I make a leap of faith today, I bought 2 black pants for my future job..since presently, I only have 1 decent black pant. The pants that I bought are still great.. they look new, have good material and good brand. Hihihihi... Bought those 2 for only $4.80, how silly is that? Plus, I got an additional 25% off...I guess today is my lucky day..hauhauhaua..

Hmphh..anyway, I am very nervous and cautious, I need an answer...I need a light..where oh where can I find it? I haven't seen a light in the end of the tunnel, so I guess I still have to keep walking and looking.. :(
That's it for today, I am at my part-time job now.. trying to keep awake.. I am a bit hungry since I only ate a bowl of cereal for dinner.. huhuhu...

Back in Ames!!

It's Monday...I got back here last evening...It felt a bit weird to see the different scenery after spending 3 weeks in CO. The only thing made me happy to go home is to see my precious baby, Chloe. I haven't seen her for about 3 weeks and I really owe the people who helped me take care of her while I am gone. Thanks guys...u're too kind!!
I had some doubts in my mind that maybe Chloe has forgotten about me since she hasn't seen me for a while..hihih...maybe I had to teach her all the tricks again, how to sit, down, back to bed,bla bla. But, surprisingly, I can tell that she was happy to see me, especially when I got home alone from work (yes, I went to my part-time job right away)...She still can do her tricks and still follow me everywhere I go. hahahaha... Especially last night, I was alone at home coz my twin is out of town.. I was a bit scared to go to living room from my room since it was dark outside, but I have my lil' sweet friend who follows me everywhere...hihihih I was not so scared anymore.
When it was time to sleep, Chloe was just laying down on her pink pillow and stared at me for a really long time. Usually, when I turn off the light, she will go to sleep right away. I wonder what was she thinking when she stared at me?
"Who is that? Is that my mommy for real? Is she back? Is she gonna leave me again?"
haiahiaha

Anyhow, I am back to my "regular" life... I dont know what my next step will be. I am still waiting for the unexpected things to happen. I have faith that something big will happen soon coz HE will never forsake us. Amen...

A Glimpse of Mony & -S-' Conversation

Me: Lalat tse, ada laba2 tuhh...tolong matiin donggg!!
-S-: Laba2 di mana?? (sambil terus cuci piring)
Me: Di jendela tuhhh...gedeee lohh!! Buruan dongg!!
-S-: (walking towards the window)..DORRRR!!! (ngagetin Mony)!
Me: MENGONG!!!! KAGET TAU!!!!? %#%#$!@&*#
-S-: hiahiahahiaihahaihiahia (ketawa gendeng)
: Mana..mana??? Sini coba liat laba2nya!!!
Me: (Nunjuk ke bawah jendelaaa) Tuhhh!!!!!!!
-S-: Jangan matiin lah..kok laba2 dimatiin, ntar kalo dimatiin, Spiderman 4 ga bakalan keluar dong!!! (ketawa2 sambil jalan ke ruang tamu)..
Me: ???????

whut?!

This is my last week in CO, I will be flying back this Sunday. I can't believe how time fly! Hmphh...Anyway, I was supposed to have a phone interview with this company but then it was postponed until today. Again, the HR called me and told me that she had an urgent meeting that she cant get out of, that we had to cancel again and plan for tomorrow instead. That makes it twice! Now, I am wondering if she really wants to interview me or if she got someone for the position but just pretending to interview me. I dont know.. I have no idea, all I know, I am not too happy about this. So anyway, I called the other company and we had a great talk. Hopefully we'll hear something soon.

Hmm..I had the weirdest dream last night. I dreamed about my twin's x-gf. It is very weird. The dream really felt super real though. Gosh, I am not sure now if this is supposed to tell me something. So I thought maybe this is a sign that my twin still thinks about her. Then, I asked him if he has a dream about her recently or maybe if he's thought of her a lot. Aha! He said that he has no idea that he kept dreaming about her too this past week. Now...maybe his thoughts were transfered to my dream since we are twins. People say that as twins, we are supposed to have a "special" connection or power. Hahaha..maybe this is it! I get a piece of his dream. LOL
Anyway, this girl (the ex), is a smart girl, but yet not so wise (my personal point-of-view). So hopefully she gets a "better" life with someone else. Otherwise, I am going to feel sorry for her.
Hihihi, 'nuff about her...seriously though, no more dreams about her please unless You are telling me something!!*looking up the sky and screaming* LOL

Second fun weekend in Colorado

Hmmm..what did we do on Friday? We went to Northfield Stapleton. It was such a nice area. You know, I think most of the shopping centers here are outdoor. People's lifestyle are really different than Iowa. They are more into outdoor activities like rock climbing, hiking, fishing, biking, skiing, snowboarding, bla bla bla. Someone told me that Colorado is the lowest obesity state in the nation. Yupe...I'm not surprised seeing how many people biking to work and to mountain! So anyway, after a little bit of shopping, me and sen went to have dinner at Texas De Brazil-Brazilian Steakhouse. Oh gosh, if you have never been there, I think you should try to go there. It is a high class fine dining. You got all bunch of steaks and people serve you like you are the royal family or something. For instance, whenever we leave our table, the waiter will come and then fold our napkins neatly and put in on the table. So, if you go to restroom, or if you go to salad bar, no matter how many times, when you come back, you will see a neat folded napkin on your table. One time, I folded my own napkin so the waiter did not have to come back to our table to fold the napkins, but guess what. When I got back, there it was, a neat looking folded napkin! I guess I did not fold it neatly like the waiter did. haha!
Anyway, it was a great dinner, but it came with a high bill. I think we spent around $80 for a dinner! But, it was fun.. hehehe thank you lalat tse2! :P

Saturday-we went hiking with Oki n Lipur. Oh gosh, it was super tiring. I and Sen decided to not continue to the top hill just because I was so tired. So we just took some pictures around and enjoyed the scenery until they got back. After that, we went home and Lipur brought us to this pet store where you can see all cute puppies. Right away, I locked my eyes into this very cute fur ball, bichon-poo!!! OMG, i want one!!!! Seriously, I almost wanted to buy this lil' guy right there! He was soo cute and sooo lazy, haihaihaa...but -s- dragged me out of the store because I think he saw that I almost went crazy and maybe brought the dog home! :(
In the evening, we enjoyed a bbq party with some of other friends. The food was awesome and we also watched DVD 'Van Wilder'. After everyone went back home, we stayed the night at Oki n Lipur's house.

Sunday- went to church n had some ice cream at downtown. Then, me and Sen went to watch IMAX movie 'Everest'. I luv it! Then we had dinner at a Vietnamese restaurant and did some grocery shopping, then we headed home!
Fun fun fun.....
I cant believe it is almost over.. Next Sunday, I will be flying back home.. :(
oh well..

Never Give Up..

OK, today the funny thing happened! Someone from some company gave me a call but I could not remember who that is and what job is it. Haha! I was soo embarrassed! Anyway, it's all good now, I did my research and I think I know who that is. Oh gosh..this is the problem of applying to multiple jobs at the same time. I just cant track everything and remember it. But, hopefully this is a sign that there is still a hope for me and I should never give up because some company out there will find me and I will find them. hahahaha.. *crossing my finger*

Anyway, yesterday I went to Downtown Aquarium in Denver. Yay yay....It was soo good..It's been a long time since I have been to any aquarium. I remember that I was always scared to go to bathroom alone everytime I saw sharks!! As a little kid, I always had an active imagination that some sharks will be in the bathtub and will come out from the water and bite me! hahaha...But yesterday, I saw lotsa sharks! A big one too!...it was really scary..dangggg....
You know, until today, I guess I still have that imagination kicks around, so yesterday when I was in the tunnel, I was asking myself, what would I do if the tunnel cracks and the water and all the fishes (including the SHARKS) come out?? Oh NOOO...huhuhhu

My spirit is better now..thank God..I need to focus and never give up. I am not giving up on anything so please God, don't give up on me!Hohoho
'nuff said about all this, I am loving a song titled "Testify to Love" by Avalon.
It is an old song and it is a really super duper great song.
Ohh by the way if Kate is reading my blog today, just want to say,, miss you too babe! Muach..

Nervous Breakdown..

Yesterday, I was feeling super blue and super down..a nervous breakdown I would say, I felt sad for no reason and I felt sooo hopeless. Well, maybe job hunting has something to do with it. I knowww... maybe I have not tried hard enough, but the idea of not knowing the future is so frustrating for me. Blahh...I was restless for the entire evening and I just sat on my bed thinking what else I can do. Surely, I can do nothing except keep looking, and it is really depressing!!!
I hate not having anything to do!!!
Huhuhhu...and as embarrassing as this sounds, I started to drop tears last night when I prayed, LOL. Hmmm....hopefully God answers my prayers..I just dont want my hard work pursuing the degree that I have now gone to waste. Anyway, -s- knew that I felt so sad and depressed, he is taking me to see Downtown Aquarium in Denver tonight!! Yayyyyyyyyyyy...thank you lalat tse2! Hopefully seeing fishes swimming around can sweep my cloudy mind awayyyyyyyyyyy....

Today, I made "Kolak Pisang" and "Pisang Goreng"! Hip hip horray...I think my baking and cooking instinct is starting to kick in since I have nothing to do now. LOL.
Too bad, -s- doesnt have any baking wares, so I can only make with whatever provided here. This Friday, we are having a potluck, so I am looking around for a good recipe. Any ideas?

Weekend in Colorado

Friday, like usual, I spent my morning and afternoon looking for jobs.
After -s- got home from work, that's when my weekend starts. We went to Pearl Street, thinking we should get dinner there. Basically Pearl Street is just like Kansas City Plaza (if you've been there). It is an outdoor place with many stores and restaurants and bars along the street.
After walking around for quite a while, we decided to have dinner at our fav restaurat, Olive Garden. But it turned out, it was not quite satisfying like I thought it would be. First, we had to wait for 10 mins although you can see that the restaurant is empty on the left side. I guess, they just wanted to use the right side. Then, after ordering, we had to wait for another 10 mins for our soups to come. The waiter said that they were making a new batch of soup for us, so we had to wait a bit more. Fineee.....
Then, the food was not so good after all...I think the white wine overpower the other spices, so it felt like I ate a pasta with white wine. Yuck....
Blahhhh...well oh well, that's my first disappointment with O.G.
After dinner, we went to rent a DVD "DejaVU" at Red Box. FYI, I am really loving Red Box!!
It's a DVD vending machine!! I think it is a really super cool idea that people can come up with.
Anyway that's my Friday.

Saturday- woke up in the morning to watch DejaVu.. then around 2 pm, we went to Denver to go to oriental super market to get our needs for tonight's dinner. We are having a small party for Sen's bday so we are cooking 1 appetizer, 5 entrees, 1 dessert.
-Fish Cake
-Rendang (curry beef)
-Ginger Chicken
-Telor Bali (balinesse egg)
-Kangkung Balacan
-Bubur Ketan Item

Look at that!! Isn't that a huge list?! We cooked right from 4pm until 7pm! The dinner was supposed to start at 7pm, but as usual, nobody showed up until 7.30pm. hahahaha..
Oh well...
The good thing is everyone loved the food...so it was a big success for us!
Later that night, we went to one of the club here, "Purple MArtini"....it was a good place, but too bad they didnt have a dance floor, AHAHHAHAHAHA;... my friend was actually aching to shake shake. LOL

Sunday-went to Church, BEthany International Church.
People were nice. The most amazing thing is, I met my super old friend there! We went to same primary school back at Jakarta. hauahuhauhahaha
What a small world!!!
Anyhow, then we went to Indo Bazaar to have lunch. Sen bought Nasi Kuning, while I bought Mie Ayam..nyam nyam..
Deb bought Ayam Rujak Bali, nyam nyam..
everyhing was soo gooddd, except, the music band!!! Soooooo ugly n so messy ahhhh.....It made us want to get away from that place ASAP...so we went to 19th Street MAll to get some Gelato...nyammmmmmmmmmmmmm
Then, me, deb, sen went further to walk around the street while the others went back home.
Bah..

That's it for my fun weekend...
Ciaoooooooooooooooooooo

It's been a while

Oh well....it's been almost 4 weeks after my graduation day, May 4th. After that date, I have been having a long vacation until this week. Everything felt surreal, my parents were here, my bro and his GF were here...things all seem soo good. But now, everyone has gone back to their lives, I am back to my own life..things seem very different. Not in a bad way though, it's just different. I am not very good at expressing my feeling, but I do feel sad to see everyone leaving since I know I will spend my days alone again.. blu hu hu hu, but luckily, I still have Chloeeeeeeeeeeeee to be my housemate....LOL

On another note, I am currently in Boulder, CO visiting -s-. It's really a nice place, everywhere you look, you see mountains and hills. I spend my days here looking for jobs..it's quite stressful. I spend around 5 hours everyday nonstop staring at computers, hunting for jobs. Gosh...thank God, it's Friday! My spirit has gone down a bit..I need a break!!
I just dont want my degree to go to waste!! God, I need a job, please.. thank you! :D
Overall, I like living in CO, it's very outdoorsy..people ride their bikes everywhere, and you can see dogs in most public places here. The only problem I had when I first arrived here is I had altitude sickness. I had a hard time breathing , especially when we got to Aspen. Oh gosh.. I cannot walk a long distance without having to stop at least every 5-10 minutes to grasp for air. It's really scary at first. But now, it's getting better. I can walk and take the stairs without having a hard time. I guess, altitude sickness will only stay temporarily, thank God! Otherwise, I dont know how to spend the rest of my days here feeling airless!
That's it for today, thank God for Friday! I need a break, seriously... soo stressful aaaaa.....