Life

It's been 3 weeks since I had my interview and I still have not heard back from them. Although I remember that they told us to not be nervous if we have not heard back in 2 weeks (since 2 weeks is considered to be the earliest time they can let us know), I am still very nervous. But, I guess, I have to learn to be patient and have faith. One of my friends who actually got a friend who has an internship with Google told me that Google really does take a long time in evaluating candidates. His friend got the offer a month or so after the interview..soo I should keep my fingers crossed.
Well...if only I can draw the graph of my hope line..I will be in "decline" point since I am beginning to feel hopeless.. LOL.
Yesterday at church, our Pastor preached about the book of James and it really strucked me.

James 4 (NIV)
"1What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? 2You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. 3When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures. "

"13Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." 14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. 15Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." 16As it is, you boast and brag. All such boasting is evil. 17Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins."

Hmm..yup yup.. I do that all the time.. "God, I want to get a job this and that, so that I can do this and that, bla bla bla"... I thought this Google job will be the most perfect job ever for me, that's why I really want it so bad. But..after listening to yesterday's sermon, I thought to myself..maybe I should change my prayer.. instead of nagging and nagging, maybe it's best for me to surrender everything to our God..
That being said, I know that I will be heart broken if I got rejected..afterall, I am still a human being..tee hee heee... But maybe I should have the faith and believe that God does have a plan for my life.. althought it might not go according to my plan...
*BIG SIGH*....Easier to be said than done, ain't it? Well...just keep me still in your prayer and I will be fine..